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Unfelt #poetry #poem

Photo credit: NJ Tamil Radio

Photo credit: NJ Tamil Radio

I keep feeling

What shouldn’t be felt.

I deny it

At every turn.

 

But there you are

In my happy place

Where smiles grow

And fear runs away.

 

I keep feeling

What shouldn’t be felt.

And I think you

Keep feeling it, too.

 

LLH

11-10-14

2:30 pm

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Sleeping In #poetry #poem

Thanks to 8tracks for the image.

Thanks to 8tracks for the image.

I pray.

I know He has laid my path for me.

I just need to follow it.

But diversions distract me.

And i want to sleep away

the days that hurt.

 

I fight.

You say that i’m the strong one.

I don’t think so.

The struggles defeat me.

And i want to sleep away

the days of anger.

 

I cry.

The tears draw lines on my cheeks.

I just wipe them away.

But more tears replace them.

And i want to sleep away

the days of sadness.

 

I’m so tired of doing this alone.

I’m so tired of wanting to share.

I’m so tired of looking for you.

And so i will sleep away

the days that overwhelm me.

 

 

LLH

5:02 PM

6/29/14

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My Wounds #poem #poetry

Photo courtesy of Pics Hunger

Photo courtesy of Pics Hunger

I pick at scabs

reopening the wound

and letting it bleed

again.

 

I will never heal

completely.

I will never feel

whole.

 

I experience love

and experience hurt

with an intensity

unmatched.

 

My broken heart bleeds

with each and every beat.

Do you realize the pain

you’ve caused?

 

LLH

6/13/14

3:41 PM

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Maybe Tomorrow #poetry

Photo by Mark Malone

Photo by Mark Malone

I am not the same girl you knew.

I am not shy and sad.

I am not one who smiles

easily.

 

I am someone completely new.

I am angry and hurt.

I pretend happiness

questionably.

 

I cry at nothing

and everything.

I yearn for ease

and happiness.

 

I don’t get

what i want.

But that’s okay.

I get

what i need.

 

So maybe tomorrow…

i’ll be who you knew.

Maybe i’ll smile

and truly be happy

.   effortlessly

.        steadily

.             free.

 

LLH

6/7/14

3:20 AM

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You Are A Dream #Poetry

I sit in the office.

It smells typical

of antiseptic

and teeth.

 

******

 

I have no wifi.

No voice to speak.

You’ll soon be gone.

It’s making me weak.

 

I sit in this office

and say to this poem,

that maybe you’re right

and maybe i’m wrong.

 

I sing in my head

of the distance i keep.

I know that i don’t.

My feelings they seep

into our talks,

into my sleep.

 

It won’t be long

and you’ll push me away.

Or procedures and laws

make you just not stay.

 

Then what will i do?

What will you say?

What will become

of us on that day?

 

There is no “us.”

I know that is true.

This is my dream,

and you are, too.

 

 

LLH

5/7/14

2:28 PM

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Why? #poetry #domesticabuse

Thanks to Identify Theft Network

Thanks to Identify Theft Network

What am I doing?

Why is he still here?

Why do I worry when

He’s alone

And hungry.

 

Why do I bail him out

Just to feel pushed

Into a corner again?

Why can’t I hate?

 

Why can’t I say ‘No’?

Why do I cry

When he’s gone?

Do I miss him?

 

He hurts

And yells

And blames.

 

I convince myself

I’m using him

To feel the love

I crave.

 

But is that what this is?

Is that what is going on?

 

My injured self

Limps through days

And cries at night.

My abused being

Wants the one

Who caused the pain.

 

I set myself up

Expecting

And receiving

Only failure.

 

Please let me

Be strong.

Please let me

Say goodbye.

 

LLH

5/5/14

4:36 AM

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LOL #30in30 #make30 #poetry

smile

I want to soak in you

In a way that I can’t express

Out loud or in private

To you.

 

I read about you

From your page

And laugh out loud

 

My laughter echoes

In a scary way

To walls that

Miss the sound.

 

I can’t tell you

Any of this.

I can’t speak

Of feelings.

 

It is too soon.

I am too fragile.

But it’s nice

To laugh.

 

 

LLH

4/30/14

2:29 AM

 

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