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I’m at that point…

Canva---Foot-Prints-in-GrayI’m at that point
where i want you
to feel as bad
as i do.

I want you
to miss my words
to miss our talks
to miss the beach
as i do.

I want you
to feel empty
to feel alone
to feel the tears
as i do.

I’m at that point
where i think i know
what i avoided
all these years.

I’m at that point
where i feel bad
just because
I want you.

 

LLH
5/11/2020
6:56 pm

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Your Jail

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What do i want
to say to you?
Anything at all?
Or maybe i should
just be silent,
like you are
to me.

You don’t deserve
to hear from me.
You don’t deserve
to read my words
and know
my thoughts.

I can’t believe
you are so scared
of not being
what they expect,
that you can’t
stand up and
just be you.

I am the only one
who accepts you —
as you.

But why do i write
as if you read
these words
I’ve written here?

Instead you sit
and do your work.
Not looking left.
Not looking right.

What a sad jail
and lonely existence
that you’ve agreed upon.

I’m sorry, my friend.

 

LLH
5/3/2020
9:00 PM

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The Line

cross the line

Image from Map Consulting.

 

I look at my poems

and realize with fear

that it is I

.   not you

who will mess this up.

This nameless thing

we have,

.   but don’t have.

I’ll take a step back

across that imaginary line

in order to save

.   us.

 

 

LLH
4-8-15
3:47 pm

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It isn’t called love #poetry #poem

Photo courtesy of Genius.com

Photo courtesy of Genius.com

Our secret relationship ended

even though it never began.

I fell for you once again

knowing i couldn’t have you.

 

The pain is inside

where no one sees

but you.

 

The tears fall down now.

I am alone

still.

 

You are lonely, too.

 

We discuss

wants and needs.

We talk about vows

and promises to God.

 

We don’t tell anyone

about these feelings

whatever name they have

Just so it isn’t

called love.

 

 

LLH

11/21/14

10:22 pm

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Somebody that I used to know #poetry #30in30 #make30

 

 

Thanks to http://www.a-fei.idv.tw for photo.

Thanks to http://www.a-fei.idv.tw for photo.

 

Somebody that I used to know.

Someone that I crushed on

As a kid. He never knew.

 

Now we chat.

Now we flirt.

Now is different.

 

Perhaps it was wrong.

Perhaps it can never be.

 

But it was fun.

And I like to talk

And be more honest

Than ever before.

 

Thank you

For being

Here

And giving me

My own place

In your world.

 

LLH

5/1/14

2:23 AM

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Something That Will Never Be #30in30 #make30 #poetry

 

Thanks to Elyria Fence for the photo

 

I’m glad you don’t read these words.

I’m glad you don’t know my heart.

The caught breath and fluttered beats

Would surely push you away.

 

Deep inside my locked-up self

Are thoughts of picket fences

And hand holding

And sweet whispers

And love.

 

If you knew, would you still stay?

If you knew, would we be friends?

It feels like an affair to me

A secret meeting

Hushed words.

 

I pray for you and her.

I pray your marriage will heal.

I pray, but my heart still yearns

For something that will never be.

 

LLH

4/27/14

12:31 AM

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Stuck in the Middle With You #30in30 #poetry #make30

 

Thanks to Life According to Steph for the photo

Thanks to Life According to Steph for the photo

 

I shouldn’t write poetry about you.

But I was crying, depressed, and sad

until we talked for minutes or hours.

Now I feel worth it, at least to you.

 

You are a friend like none I’ve had

who listens, again, to my woes

and talks me back to happy.

 

You keep me moving forward

even if you are moving back

 

until we meet again in the middle.

 

 

LLH

4/17/14

12:11 AM

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