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Dear ______

Photo courtesy of The Village Voice

Photo courtesy of The Village Voice

Some of my poems

are letters to you

of things i feel

or haven’t spoken.

 

This is one.

 

I was bold and sure

and gave advice

i hoped you’d take

as you left me for a week.

 

I am trying to do

what is right and

I know that you are, too.

 

But how can my heart

feel like this

and how can yours

feel the same

 

… if it is wrong?

 

Now i feel jealous.

Jealous??

That is silly

and we both know it.

 

But why?

 

Help me understand.

Help me overcome.

Help me stop

loving you.

 

LLH

4/20/15

12:32 AM

 

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My Best Friend

Photo from University of East Anglia

Photo from University of East Anglia

You aren’t here.

I’m thinking of you.

And wondering if

You’re thinking of me, too.

 

We said our goodbyes

and you admitted to me

that you would

.   indeed

miss me.

 

I said it to you

but you already knew.

My words and my poems

too honest.

 

I am transparent

even if i try to hide.

You know me

like none other.

 

I kinda like it that way.

 

 

LLH

4-19-15

8:27 PM

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Mixed Emotions

Photo by LilyLover.

Photo by LilyLover.

He’s the one that got my humor.

The one that i could laugh with.

He was my soul mate

for sixteen long years.

Years of pain and poison.

 

It’s good he’s gone.

It’s good i left him.

So why am i so sad?

Why am i hurting?

 

Is it the loneliness?

The extra responsibility?

Missing arms holding me

and lips on my neck?

 

Depression is heavy.

It wears you down.

The little pills are no substitute

for the happiness i felt.

 

LLH

4/12/15

11:29 PM

 

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Divorce

Photo from The Grid.

Photo from The Grid.

I am a failure.
People say “sorry”
when they hear
the news.

But I’m not sorry.
I tried.
.  I forgave.
.    I forgot.
And yet
he lied.
.  he took.
.    he hurt.

People say
when you’re in love,
.        you stay.
When you say “I do,”
.        it’s forever.
Vows before God
.        can’t be broken by man.

They hear “divorce”
and they think
it’s a shame.

But I can’t say
he beat me.
I can’t explain the drugs,
the loneliness, the fear.

So don’t assume
and don’t judge
just because
.  I’m happy
.    to be free.

 

LLH
4-8-15
3:58 pm

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The Line

cross the line

Image from Map Consulting.

 

I look at my poems

and realize with fear

that it is I

.   not you

who will mess this up.

This nameless thing

we have,

.   but don’t have.

I’ll take a step back

across that imaginary line

in order to save

.   us.

 

 

LLH
4-8-15
3:47 pm

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I’ll Get By

Image from Stock Clip

Image from Stock Clip

I write short, happy poems
So I don’t need to delve
Deep into my soul
Filled with emotions
Dark and scary.
Even I am overwhelmed
By these thoughts
By this sadness
By this me
That I’ve become.
Don’t feel responsible
For my feelings
Or my hurt.
They aren’t yours to own.
I’ll get by
Even without
A man of skin.

LLH
4-7-15
2:31 pm

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The Color Blue

Image from WallpapersWA.com

Image from WallpapersWA.com

They say that blue

relaxes you.

I find no calming effect.

.

It fills me up

with cold, blue tears

and makes me quite upset.

.

I like a perfect pink

a pretty perky yellow.

Green in all its shades

is like a happy hello.

.

But you,

.  you blue,

you sadden me

like raindrops on the roof.

You chill the temps

and dim the sky

and make the world aloof.

.

LLH

4-6-15

3:18 pm

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