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Your Latest Promise #30in30 #make30 #poetry

Thanks to Effusion Designs for the photo.

Thanks to Effusion Designs for the photo.

You serve me hot dogs

On a paper plate.

The ketchup looks

Like dripping blood.

 

I eat deliberately,

Thinking solely of

Your latest offering

Your latest promise.

 

Why should I hope?

(Because I want it.)

Why should I consider?

(It’s all I ever wanted.)

 

Your love is the carrot

Dangling out of reach

That I’ve been chasing after

For these sixteen odd years.

 

But now I question

Why I race

Why I chase

After your promises

After your tease

After your lies

After your love.

 

It’s only just a carrot.

 

LLH

4/27/14

4:42 PM

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Who do you think you are? #30in30 #make30 #poetry

Thanks to Catching Fire for the photo.

Thanks to Catching Fire for the photo.

Who do you think you are?

Wanting me one more time?

I am fragile still.

A shell of who I ever was.

 

You tell me that you love me

That I’m the only one.

Does she know that?

The one you called “most beautiful”?

 

I will grow strong.

I will move on.

I will find love

That isn’t a lie.

 

I threw away 16 years

In an attempt to make us whole

And now you say

It’s all my fault.

 

I do not accept you

As you are.

I constantly revisit

Our tortured past.

 

Who do you think you are?

Blaming me for your abuse?

I am strong now.

Strong enough to walk away.

 

 

LLH

4/20/14

12:23 AM

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Bad Decisions #30in30 #make30 #poetry

Photo courtesy of Chase Amante

Photo courtesy of Chase Amante

 

I’ll take a bad decision,

And taste it once again.

I’ll serve it up ice cold

With a side of chips

And cherry Kool-aid®.

 

Why should I think

This time will be different?

What makes it better now?

 

We’re together alone.

We’re both drunk.

We both want to be

What we could have always been.

 

But I’m just dreaming.

And you’re just wishing.

And tomorrow will be

Filled with regrets.

 

 

LLH

4/14/14

2:33 AM

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What to Write? #30in30 #make30 #poetry

mistake

 

I broke free
from the yoke
he placed around my neck.

His anger
and abuse
always escalated.

I had thought
it would be
the hardest to break free.

i
was
wrong.

Loneliness,
fear of change,
hamper my every move.

However
it’s all new
and it’s my life to make.

A blank slate
a crisp page
just waiting for my words.

what
to
write?

 

 
LLH
4/12/14
11:29 pm

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My Heroin #poetry #30in30 #make30

My life lacks the sparkle
and color of a fairy tale.
My knight was dark,
Abusive and high.

He ruled my world,
But not my dreams,
He is the evil villain
Of my nightmares.

The shady tree still cowers
Above my silly head.
It keeps me in the dark,
But shields me from the rain.

The dog is flea-less now.
He sleeps with me in bed.
He protects me from my demons,
And keeps my feet all warm.

The children seem carefree,
Unafraid of spills and screams.
They like to act all crazy,
We’re different now from then.

He left again today,
I swear it’s for the last.
But I think I swore that same damn thing
And then asked him back.

He is my drug of choice.
He is my heroin.
Until I get he’s no hero
I’ll return to him again.

 

LLH
04/05/14
11:57 PM

 

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